life story part 666
2003-08-16 @ 4:23 p.m.
aimless writing & rambling ... now . it seems i've got everything i need and yet still something's missing . it's so much easier not to make an effort . it's easier to let someone else do all the work . but even if i don't want to go all the way it'd be nice to just be invited . my problem is everyone keeps telling me to do things their way and it never works . i have to do things my own way . i like driving with my hand on the bottom of the steering wheel and playing music by ear . playing twelve rounds on keyboard for a class full of grungy garage band boys that listen to pantera and mudvayne . i don't like having my picture taken by other people because i have to pose and smile . i don't feel like i belong here . what's so wonderful about relationships anyway . sleep kiss cuddle hold hands kiss touch sleep . being close to someone and feeling needed and having someone to need i guess . everything is still the same but it's nice to have something to look forward to . things become routine too fast though . i want something more, i want a real friend . i want a bumper sticker that says "honk if you hate people too" . i like speaking german sporadically and flipping people off while driving . but i only like the rain when it doesn't rain all the time .
look, robin finck -you know, of nine inch nails fame- sent me a message . did you zickleins catch that? robin finck sent me a message .
hello.
i'm robin. i really like the pic you sent.
you'll find it posted on 'the nest / view pictures' page.
thank you for being a part of this grand life experience.
r o bi n
and my life is one step closer to being complete .
