how to have a bad day
2003-02-07 @ 5:14 a.m.
go to dmv . wait in crowded room two hours . proceed to line and wait another half hour . sit outside until your turn comes . go to take test and realize car battery's dead . reschedule appointment, say a few lovely words and leave dmv . all work and no play makes staci an impatient fed up angry girl .
: why does god hate me?
mom : you don't believe in god .
: i know, but why does he hate me ?
speechless .
nine inch nails . gave up
perfect little dream
the kind that hurts the most
forgot how it feels, well almost
no one to blame always the same
open my eyes wake up in flames
it took you to make me realize
it took you to make me realize
it took you to make me realize
it took you to make me see the light
smashed up my sanity
smashed up my integrity
smashed up what i believed in
smashed up what's left of me
smashed up my everything
smashed up all that was true
gonna smash myself to pieces
i don't know what else to do
covered in hope and vaseline
still cannot fix this broken machine
watching the hole it used to be mine
just watching it burn in my steady systematic decline
all of the trust i will betray
give it to me i throw it away
after everything i've done
i hate myself for what i've become
i tried
i gave up
throw it away
