insensitive
2003-06-24 @ 12:11 p.m.
even writing about this seems like a burden, but i just want to get it all out before i burst from frustration . it probably doesn't mean as much if you don't know all the details . someone decides to ask someone else permission to go out with his ex-girlfriend, this someone else works with someone i know and this someone i know happens to know that someone happens to be stephen . i don't even want to explain it all . i guess i just got a little angry that someone would do all this with me and then just go out with another girl (who's been with everyone in their little group anyhow) like it's nothing . and so i talked to him last night and it went something like.. were you just using me or do you jump from girl to girl or what, "you never said i couldn't have a girlfriend", you're an asshole and i hate you right now, "i understand", understand that i never want to see you again, "i'm sorry but you did just want to be friends with benefits", why don't you think about someone else for once, "because i am the only person i will always have", "keep that attitude your whole life and see where it gets you.. if you ever fuck with my friend again i will kill you bitch!", "i'm not worth it, you'll get over it", the sad part of this all is that i actually thought i loved you.. do you even know what love is? maybe you should find out before you say it next time, "well then i should be easier to get over, since you realize you didn't.. if i said yes would you believe me?", blah blah bleh, "i don't want this to be the end of our friendship", (sarcasm) i'm sorry i made a big deal out of nothing and it's no big deal and you're all right, "really? i'm sorry, i know i've been an asshole this whole time and i just get defensive when being caring doesn't work, forgive me?", ...
i know you're not worth it but that doesn't make it hurt any less . you don't have feelings, that's all . okay, i can die now .
jann arden . insensitive
how do you cool your lips after a summer's kiss?
how do you rid the sweat after the body bliss?
how do you turn your eyes from the romantic glare?
how do you block the sound of a voice you'd know anywhere?
oh i really should have known
by the time you drove me home
by the vagueness in your eyes
your casual good-byes
by the chill in your embrace
the expression on your face, that told me
maybe you might have some advise to give
on how to be insensitive
how do you numb your skin after the warmest touch?
how do you slow your blood after the body rush?
how do you free your soul after you've found a friend?
how do you teach your heart it's a crime to fall in love again?
well you probably won't remember me
it's probably ancient history
i'm one of the chosen few
who went ahead and fell for you
i'm out of bold, i'm out of touch
i fell too fast, i feel too much
i thought that you might have
some advise to give on how to be insensitive
oh i really sould have known
by the time you drove me home
by the vagueness in your eyes
you casual good-byes
by the chill in your embrace
the expression on your face, that told me
maybe you might have some advise to give
on how to be insensitive
(how to be) insensitive
(how to be) insensitive
