born to lose
2003-06-20 @ 10:24 p.m.
this is my life . cruising clearwater beach & going to winghouse & taking walks at night with friends . things seem pretty good . i'm making an effort to be more social . so why am i so goddamn lonely ? it's like an arrow being pulled out of my heart every time he takes his love back . i can tell from the spaces between words . and it feels like i'm being taken away from something wonderful . "love doesn't make the world go round, love is what makes the ride worthwhile ."
r.e.m. . losing my religion
life is bigger
it's bigger than you
and you are not me
the lengths that i will go to
the distance in your eyes
oh no i've said too much
i set it up
that's me in the corner
that's me in the spotlight
losing my religion
trying to keep up with you
and i don't know if i can do it
oh no i've said too much
i haven't said enough
i thought that i heard you laughing
i thought that i heard you sing
i think i thought i saw you try
every whisper
of every waking hour i'm
choosing my confessions
trying to keep an eye on you
like a hurt lost and blinded fool
oh no i've said too much
i set it up
consider this
the hint of the century
consider this
the slip that brought me
to my knees failed
what if all these fantasies
come flailing around
now i've said too much
i thought that i heard you laughing
i thought that i heard you sing
i think i thought i saw you try
but that was just a dream
that was just a dream
matchbox 20 . push
she said i don't know if i've ever been good enough
i'm a little bit rusty, and i think my head is caving in
and i don't know if i've ever been really loved
by a hand that's touched me
well i feel like something's gonna give
and i'm a little bit angry, well
this ain't over, no not here
not while i still need you around
you don't owe me, we might change
yeah we just might feel good
i wanna push you around, i will, i will
i wanna push you down, i will, i will
i wanna take you for granted
i wanna take you for granted, i will
she said i don't know why you ever would lie to me
like i'm a little untrusting when i think that
the truth is gonna hurt ya
and i don't know why you couldn't just stay with me
you couldn't stand to be near me
when my face don't seem to want to shine
cause it's a little bit dirty, well
don't just stand there, say nice things to me
i've been cheated i've been wronged, and you
you don't know me, i can't change
i won't do anything at all
i wanna push you around, i will, i will
i wanna push you down, i will, i will
i wanna take you for granted
i wanna take you for granted, i will
oh but don't bowl me over
just wait a minute well it kinda fell apart
things get so crazy, crazy
don't rush this baby
don't rush this baby
