fear of
2003-05-26 @ 8:21 p.m.
you know what made my day, driving past the 666 state marker .
okay, so i thought about what he said ; maybe he's right . and maybe my first reaction to criticism is to put up a defense . i'm not used to making the first move, i hate it really . but it doesn't do any good to put me down about it all the time . expectations don't help, either . i have to feel like doing something to do it right . and i don't really feel like dealing with him and his constant judging and analyzing right now . i really need to meet a new guy, you know ?
"Oh, face it, you just hate every single guy on the face of the earth." "That's not true. I just hate all these extroverted, obnoxious, pseudo-bohemian losers." - ghost world
jack off jill . fear of dying
i'm not afraid of standing still
i'm just afraid of being bored
i'm not afraid of speaking my mind
i'm just afraid of being ignored
i'm not afraid of feeling
and i'm not afraid of trying
i'm just afraid of losing
and i am afraid of dying
without you yes i do
and i hope that you do too
i'm not afraid of being sick
i'm more afraid of being well
i'm not afraid
put the gun in my hand
i'm just afraid it will hurt like hell
i'm not afraid of screaming
and i'm not afraid of crying
i'm just afraid of forgetting
and i am afraid of dying
without you yes i do
and i hope that you do too
fear of, fear of
i'm not afraid of looking ugly
i couldn't care what they say
i'm not afraid of happy endings
i'm just afraid my life won't work that way
i'm not afraid of forgiveness
i absolve you everything
i'm not afraid of lying...
but i am afraid of dying
