trip to the techno mix
2003-05-12 @ 7:40 p.m.
things to make up for not writing a normal entry :
the techno ambient take acid go to rave and trip out with glowy light sticks & bubbles but kind of rock mix . aka .. techno ambient acid trip mix .
meat beat manifesto . spinning around
aphex twin . polynomial-c
t.a.t.u. . not gonna get us
12 rounds . something's burning
nine inch nails . the perfect drug
the orb . light fluffy clouds
moby . sunday (day before my birthday)
björk . hyperballad
radiohead . paranoid android
marilyn manson . misery machine
the smashing pumpkins . spaced
and now lyrics to the longest but funniest eighties song ever .
suicidal tendencies . institutionalized
sometimes i try to do things and
it just doesn't work out the way i want it to
i get real frustrated and i try hard to do it
and i take my time and it
doesn't work out the way i want it to
it's like i concentrate real hard and
it doesn't work out everything i do and
everything i try never turns out
it's like i need time to figure these things out
but there's always someone there going
“hey mike,
you know we've been noticing
you've been having a lot of problems lately
you know,
maybe you should get away and
maybe you should talk about it
maybe you'll feel a lot better”
and i go,
“no it's okay
you know i'll figure it out
just leave me alone
i'll figure it out you know
i'll just work by myself”
and they go,
“well you know if you want to talk
about it i'll be here you know and
you'll probably feel a lot better
if you talk about it”
and i go,
“no i don't want to i'm okay
i'll figure it out myself” and they just
keep bugging me and they just
keep bugging me and it builds up inside
and it builds up inside
so you're gonna be institutionalized
you'll come out brainwashed
with bloodshot eyes
you won't have any say
they'll brainwash you
until you see their way
i'm not crazy, institutionalized
you're the one who's crazy, institutionalized
you're driving me crazy, institutionalized
they stuck me in an institution
said it was the only solution
to give me the needed professional help
to protect me from the enemy, myself
i was in my room and i was just like
staring at the wall thinking about everything
but then again i was thinking about nothing
and then my mom came in and
i didn't even know she was there
she called my name and i didn't even hear it
and then she started screaming “mike! mike!”
and i go,
“what? what's the matter?”
and she goes,
“what's the matter with you?”
i go, “there's nothing wrong mom”
and she goes,
“don't tell me that, you're on drugs!”
and i go, “no mom
i'm not on drugs, i'm okay
i was just thinking you know
why don't you get me a pepsi?”
and she goes,
“no you're on drugs!”
i go, “mom i'm okay
i'm just thinking”
she goes, “no you're not thinking
you're on drugs!
normal people don't act that way!”
i go, “mom
just give me a pepsi, please
all i want is a pepsi”
and she wouldn't give it to me
all i wanted was a pepsi, just one pepsi!
and she wouldn't give it to me
just a pepsi!
they give you a white shirt with
long sleeves tied around your back
you're treated like thieves
drug you up because they're lazy
it's too much work to help a crazy
i'm not crazy, institutionalized
you're the one who's crazy, institutionalized
you're driving me crazy, institutionalized
they stuck me in an institution
said it was the only solution
to give me the needed professional help
to protect me from the enemy, myself
i was sitting in my room and
my mom and my dad came in and
they pulled up a chair
and they sat down
they go,
“mike we need to talk to you”
and i go, “okay what's the matter”
they go,
“me and your mom have been noticing lately
that you've been having a lot of problems
you've been going off for no reason and
we're afraid you're gonna hurt somebody
we're afraid you're gonna hurt yourself
so we decided that it would be
in your best interest if we put you
somewhere where you could
get the help that you need”
and i go, “wait what do you mean?
what are you talking about, we decided?
my best interest?
how can you know what's in my best interest
how can you say what my best interest is
what are you trying to say, i'm crazy?
when i went to your schools,
i went to your churches,
i went to your institutional learning facilities
so how can you say that i'm crazy?!”
they say they're gonna fix my brain
alleviate my suffering and my pain
but by the time they fix my head
mentally i'll be dead
..doesn’t matter i’ll probably get hit by a car anyhow.
