i want to be a star
2003-04-23 @ 10:00 p.m.
the longer i stare at pictures of the stars the smaller and more insignificant i begin to feel . like a mere blood cell in a universe of blood . a spec amongst millions of specs on a spec amongst zillions of other specs . everything is random, left to chance, without meaning . i will die, just as everything else, and be forgotten, just as everything else will eventually be . and everything will either start over again or cease to be entirely . whichever, i don't mind .
i think the incense is starting to get to me .
smashing pumpkins . thirty-three
speak to me in a language i can hear
humour me before i have to go
deep in thought i forgive everyone
as the cluttered streets greet me once again
i know i can't be late, supper's waiting on the table
tomorrow's just an excuse away
so i pull my collar up and face the cold, on my own
the earth laughs beneath my heavy feet
at the blasphemy in my old jangly walk
steeple guide me to my heart and home
the sun is out and up and down again
i know i'll make it, love can last forever
graceful swans of never topple to the earth
and you can make it last, forever you
you can make it last, forever you
and for a moment i lose myself
wrapped up in the pleasures of the world
i've journeyed here and there and back again
but in the same old haunts i still find my friends
mysteries not ready to reveal
sympathies i'm ready to return
i'll make the effort, love can last forever
graceful swans of never topple to the earth
tomorrow's just an excuse
and you can make it last, forever you
you can make it last, forever you
