everything's all wrong
2003-03-21 @ 9:21 p.m.
as much as i talk about not getting along with my mother, there are times when we actually do get along . i've known all along that my father is a selfish bastard, and i've looked past it and forgiven him for everything, over and over . for all the times he used to abuse me, and my mother would protect me . for all the times he made me get his beers and for all the times i had to beg him for hours to play baseball or a video game with me for a few minutes . for the holidays and birthdays he missed without even a call or a card . not this time .
after years of trying to get child support out of him, without success, now he's taking my mother to court to lower the amount of child support he's not paying, change our doctor's plan to the lowest possible, and end my florida prepaid so he can keep going to college . he puts on an act, i've seen it, plays victim with his disability and mental unstability . LIAR . "the biggest mistake i made was going over there and taking the gun out of his hand," she said .
you know what jim, you were never a father . and this isn't her speaking anymore, i've got my own opinion about you whether you want to believe it or not . i'm not the oblivious little girl you want me to be anymore . i know exactly what you're doing, like i always have, and just because i forgive doesn't mean i forget . i know you better than you think . isn't it funny how you can't say the same ?
goo goo dolls . sympathy
stranger than your sympathy
this is my apology
i'm killing myself from the inside out
and all my fears have pushed you out
i wish for things that i don't need
all i wanted
and what i chase won't set me free
all i wanted
and i get scared but i'm not
crawling on my knees
oh yeah, everything's all wrong yeah
everything's all wrong yeah
where the hell did i think i was
stranger than your sympathy
i take these things so i don't feel
i'm killing myself from the inside out
now my head's been filled with doubt
it's hard to lead the life you choose
all i wanted
when all your luck's run out on you
all i wanted
and you can't see when all your
dreams are coming true
oh yeah, it's easy to forget yeah
and you choke on the regrets yeah
who the hell did i think i was
stranger than your sympathy
all these thoughts you stole from me
i'm not sure where i belong
nowhere's home and i'm all wrong
and i wasn't all the things
i tried to make believe i was
and i wouldn't be the one to kneel
before the dreams i wanted
and all the talk and all the lies
were all the empty things disguised as me
yeah stranger than your sympathy
stranger than your sympathy
